Hi @digitalfirehose, I resonate with this more than you might expect. This was exactly my story,, and still is at times. I get it.

I was also attached to outcomes and realized how much of a control freak I was in all aspects of my life. I have suffered a great deal of anxiety which is a direct link to the "lack of control" thing.

I was always looking into the future and trying to make predictions too. I have come along way, I was a negative thinker as well (out of fear). It's gradual, and I still slip up and let the negative momentum take over at times but like you said, "to be willing to watch the world turn without me trying to impose my will upon it". That's it right there!

I'm really glad you shared this and contributed to the topic. I will check out some of your posts :)