No Easy Way To Say
Hello #Steemfam,
There's something I've been putting off, and if you're really my Fam then there's no use prolonging it anymore.
If you've been following @hendrix22's blog I'm sure you know there's some fucked shit going on in our life to say the least.
So, here goes:
B and I broke up in the beginning of September. He's got an illness with gambling, I though we had figured it out and tamed that beast 8 years ago, but turned out the beast was still roaring the whole time. I understand addiction being a former alcoholic myself, so of course I will always understand what's going on with B. Always.
I cried for weeks at first.
Then I got real mad.
It's been rough to say the least, and I want to say the least, trust me lol.
Things are getting better though, more 'balanced' on my end, and that's why I think I've found the lady balls to write now.
Being apart doesn't make us less of a family.
The children are doing pretty good, as good as can be in a separation. B is hanging out with them tonnes.
I don't know what I'm accomplishing by writing this...
I guess it's just that I've had this major situation going on and haven't told any of you about it. So, here it is. Our life this last while...the realest, and most alive-in-me part, that I've been leaving out.
I need to get back to frequently posting.
I've been trying for the last 2 days to start the story of "Honeyman", my best friend who passed away 5 years ago. I am finding it really hard to start that tale...I'm finding it really hard to post at all these last months! I'm scatterbrained my friends. My #SteemFam...
Before this "revelation" in Sept, the children had just gone back to school, and I was on fire, posting twice a day. I definitely got sidetracked, for good reason, but enough is enough. I need to get back to work.
I feel your pain and hope you will find many hidden blessings that aren't visible yet. I have no flowery words to offer, as we all walk with our demons and crosses and so often people will allow them to come between themselves and those they love.
I note that despite your hurt and frustration you can still take it upon yourself to treasure the bonds while edifying him where it is deserving. Thank you, the display of dignity and love is warming. I will pray for him that he can face this demon and best its seduction of his soul.
oh, Lyndsay, dear..
(I 've stopped myself from writing tearful words of pity for you)
why? because you're STRONG, and you don't need any kind of pity.
Moreover! It's not a tragedy of the life. All are alive! All the rest can be changed if it's worth of it.
And I really appreciate you go on public and share this family news here.
and how wise you both are to go on to be just parents, caring and loving, despite of your inner problems.
P.S. My brother has just divorced after 22 years of living together. 2 kids. Common flat. It was VERY hard for him. I was afraid he had lost life sense at all. But time passed, and he is better now, thanks Heaven! And he does see the sense and the light of this life, and it's even brighter, because he has gone away from the bitch who poisoned his life for the last 10 years.
Moreover, she is a SO fucking bitch that she tries to prevent his communication with kids, and the sense of her life isn't kids but poisoning if his life, even now...
By the way, I know what you're talking about..
Before my marriage I had long relationship with a boy who had crazy passion to sports betting.
It cost us so much money, time and my nerves...
So many scandals, so much shouting and stresses, but no result.
It's a disease, a real one.
People are ok, adequate, but they start playing, they are obsessed. It's very hard to overcome.
So I know this problem, dear..
Ladyballs;))
even here you joke;))
Love you, SiSTAR!<3
I’m sorry you’re going through rough waters, to say the least. Addiction is a disease that ruins family and no one on the outside can truly understand what you are going through. We may not chat much but you and your husband have always been kind to people. I remember from my newbie days. My best wishes to you to stay strong.
Remember it is his addiction not yours. You know what it takes to control an addiction, did any thing anyone said to you make you quit? It had to be a choice you made. You know what helped you, and even though it may be painful right now to revisit it in yourself, it is there you will remember what people did, and how they helped you, and what did not help. The most caring person in the world could get it wrong and exacerbate the issues. Time is the only thing that will show progress.
I love you both and I hope that you can forgive.
I am so sick with sadness. Two of my favorite people in the world. x I pray for them both.
I'm Speecless!
Dm novel On the way!
I am so sick with sadness. Two of my favorite people in the whole world. Totally hard on Mumabear Mr. Tony. X I pray for them both.
I read this yesterday but wanted to take some time to reply. I truly am sorry for the heartache you are feeling right now. I know exactly how you feel when trust is broken. I know you are strong strong women but it doesnt change the hurt. I am sorry you have to go thru this. It will be okay. You will be okay.
I feel you Lyndsay. Im still a mess, and still sad and mad, and trying to find peace, and working through so many things.
I know you can do this, get through this, and you and the kids with be be better than okay. We all will.
Much love and hugs ♡♡♡♡♡
@lyndaybowes, it's so brave of you to share this very personal situation with all of us. I just want to say, you've been an inspiration for me on this blockchain and we are so much richer having you here.
If you feel the need to take a break, we will understand. Or if you want to share this part of your journey with us, we will do the best we can to give you the support you need.
All the best
@kabir88
Love you, my sister from another mister! 💙 You have ladyballs of steel. ;)