I want to be a whole person. yes. I feel so overwhelmed with all the everyday greed and abuse and rah rah sentimentality of helping the community as long as it keeps the people and money pouring in. I feel like we are sacrificing community and integrity for a bankroll. And I realize its just a different version of capitalism hidden in sheeps clothing. The 'kiss ass to make a buck' mentality hasn't changed. The rules about how we judge others and deal with emotions hasn't changed. And i still have a huge check mark next to "does not play well with others."