RE: Emotional expression and the violence inherent in the system
I couldn't agree more. And that is coming from someone who for many years prided himself on controlling (negative) emotions and trying to only cultivate happiness and positivity. Well guess what. Even for someone blessed with good brain chemistry like myself, who almost unfailingly wakes up on the right side of bed and reacts to most things in a positive manner, that is horseshit. I have come to the opinion that while it may be important to keep anger under control at least to the extent that one avoids hurting other people or oneself, beyond that, "controlling" emotions means "stunting" emotions. It means never really "growing up" into an emotionally mature individual. It means never acquiring the empathy necessary to understand what others are going through. It may mean not even acknowledging what the self is going through. I am not ashamed to admit I was an emotional child until very recently, although I would not have admitted that before, believing I was "in control" of my emotions. it is only once I have started letting go of that control a little and embracing the yin that is inside of me (as it is inside of everyone) that I have realized that I was operating as half a person previously. I want to be a whole person.
This was beautifully written and I hope you continue to share your emotions and thoughts.
I love you - Carl
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I want to be a whole person. yes. I feel so overwhelmed with all the everyday greed and abuse and rah rah sentimentality of helping the community as long as it keeps the people and money pouring in. I feel like we are sacrificing community and integrity for a bankroll. And I realize its just a different version of capitalism hidden in sheeps clothing. The 'kiss ass to make a buck' mentality hasn't changed. The rules about how we judge others and deal with emotions hasn't changed. And i still have a huge check mark next to "does not play well with others."