I hear you my friend, I would do exactly the same, I have spend the last 15 years of my life taking back control of my health and my well being. Like you have said their is next to none holistic care provided today, yet how can you successfully treat the physical without acknowledging the emotional and spiritual. I would not feel comfortable handing over my power, my body to a health professional.
If there is anything any one of us can do to help or support you in any way please reach out to us, there are a lot of people on here with a lot of knowledge for natural self empowered treatments. I will keep you in my thoughts, please keep us informed xxx