Thank you for you gentle understanding. I am finally pulling back up from the emotional nose dive. I have been avoiding even reading more than one or two replies a day because I just have to let some scabs form, some deep wounds were just ripped open. There was one person who said I ought to be embarrassed... Nope, I am never embarrassed to be me, or to tell the truth. I wonder if his wife, daughter or mother were sexually assaulted if he would expect them to be too embarrassed to discuss it publicly too. That does seem to be how people are. If the person is on TV, we will emote on cue, but when people in our REAL world have experiences we do not want to deal with, we demand they shut up.