"the concept of social proof is build into me, so that first vote gets the ball rolling."

This is so important, and people totally ignore it.

Why do these people think there has never been a tip jar in human history with less than $1 in it? Magic?

"Should I not be able to reward myself with a upvote for the time I have invested?"

Only if it meets with the arbitrary approval (or, perhaps, lack of disapproval) of the feudal overlords.

"I dont know how often I have 'not' posted some of my data analysis because of fear of backlash."

I'm aware of this and wish I wasn't. It is dismaying. Data should speak for itself.

"I can see from your comments you are watching over your shoulder for that downvote."

Not well enough, it would seem.

" I know that feeling well"

I'm beginning to wonder if it is worth it, or if I should perhaps stick to posting about clouds or...doing something else entirely.