Awesome and thank you for the comment! I believe we need to redefine what is spiritual... my "peak" was 5-6 years ago too, but that definition should be updated. What does it mean to be spiritual? If it can be taken away (peak states, intuition, connection) through a health challenge, then is it really something to "latch" onto anyway?)

Yes, and life can throw shit at us that doesn't fit any model, all the tools don't work, everything goes out the window. That's where I've been the last few years. I can't compare myself to who I was back then... God, so much to go into here!

Yes, I believe that at a point we need to consciously choose to just be a fucking human. And not be so attached to growth. Like I said, life may hit you with a disease that knocks your energy off. Hit you with immense depression and dementia even. Life is a bitch. So going with the flow, even when you feel like your entire identity has been destroyed, is the key (if there even is a key).

At some point you have to put down the green tea and get away from meditation for a while. It’s been years since I’ve meditated consistently or even spent time in silence. - Yea, totally. Seems like we've both "been there" and now we're in a different life mode/phase, whether by conscious choice or outside forces.

Yeah, crossfit is awesome if it aligns with you. Glad you are doing it, and yeah, sucking in all that O2 can only be good :)

I've done tons of energy medicine, from frequency machines to kill off bugs and shit, PEMF, Coils, but never a Bemer. I'll take a look, thanks dude!