THAT SINGLE MOTHER
took my day off work today, I found it difficult working without a clear head. I've had a lot on my mind for days and I needed a way out. I work all day, twenty hours straight and I get only four hours of sleep. How depressing can this be? Pretty disturbing in fact, but when you have kids to feed, what have you got to do? My children, two boys, different fathers whom I both loved. Lost one to death and the other to a woman. Yes, I have been through a whole lot all my life, I'm too weak to be strong. Too sad to be happy, too down to be up. Today I wrote a resignation letter and I tore it in pieces when I begun to think of all the bills and the expenses I have to handle. My life as a single mother is as difficult as it looks but what I find more difficult is seeking happiness. Relationships, I tried but when do I ever get time to look after these kids, talk more of paying attention to a man, its really expensive. Today, I want to disappear, Today I want to drown in my own skin, today I want to see my kids gets home from school, today I want to take my dog for a walk, today I want to find a wave that fits, today I want to jump out of my window, today I want to swim in the warm pool behind my house, today I want to get drunk and sleep on the welcome doormat, today I want to be free, today I don't want to feel alone. Someone pick me up today, as I lay in my dreams, sleeping deep in my office, wishing this was more than a dream.
Yours Truly
That single mother.
♥
There are 3 steps to helping yourself in this world. Step 1 - Recognize you need a break. Step 2 - Try something new Step 3 - Be persistent.
You're 2.5 for 3 so far, and somehow being a single mom and raising two kids and working you have managed to wrap your head around technologies like the blockchain, crypto, and Steemit? Damn! There are a lot of people out there looking for someone like you. I could probably ask 1000 different people on the street today if they understood these concepts, and they'd say no.
Teach your kids to steam vegetables for dinner, tell them mommy has to get drunk and fall asleep under the stars on the roof. They can go on the roof when they're 18. Tell them if they try and talk to you by yelling through the kitchen exhaust vent you'll put them in the military overseas.
One day, you never know, Steemit may buy you a vacation for you and the fam :D Until then the only thing I can do to help you is lend a Follow.
Btw audiobooks are amazing if you ever find yourself drunk on a roof with your kids having found the exhaust vent trick.
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