RE: Mini Motivation #107 - The Day I Decided to See a Therapist
Hi @ssimkins9, thanks for your comment and kind words. Truth is I had been debating the decision for a while, and a part of me kept on insisting that I can work on it on my own, or just let it pass. But I realized the manifestation of the chest pains and nagging tendencies to reach of pain killers all the time is bad.
I have been evaluating why I had delayed the decision, if it was a financial thing (not that it's expensive, but in the scope of "Am I paying for something I don't really need?"), an ego thing, or just trying to wallow more in my own pool of pain.
I realised I couldn't come to the conclusion, so it's better to just register myself for a session, and see how it goes. Maybe there's nothing, maybe there's something, and I leave that to the professionals to give their point of view.
That's actually really wise. I had a couple of different therapists at different times. I'm glad to hear you found this one through a recommendation, and even still, so much of the process depends on being able to establish a connection. If after a handful of sessions, this person has not been able to set a rapport with you, then I don't think there is anything wrong with trying someone new. There is a balance in making sure you're not jumping ship for other reasons or too soon though.
In my experience, the pain tends to get worse before getting better. When we decide to put aside our pain killers (whether that is literal pills, or some kind of compulsive behavior), the pain that we were keeping stuffed floats up. Good luck my man and hang in there. You're not alone.