Hello @kaysiewashere and welcome back to Steemit. We've missed you :-) If I have read your post correctly I know what you mean. It is so easy for so called 'professionals' to throw you a pill and then leave you to get on with it. For many you're just a case note to write up and then forget. I'm lucky in that I have a family doctor who we have known for years and is willing to take the time and effort with you and direct you to the best possible care. He prescribed me my anti depression medication and it is what I need right now. It enables me to function well but it is something I would rather not be on as I feel my emotions have dulled and I'm not experiencing life as I should. I feel for you and hope you battle through things (I'm sure you will - you seem like a fighter). Keep posting and let us know how things go for you. Take care of yourself.