Infinite gratitude for your role in bringing me to this place. I suppose I was ripe for it. I could so easily have kept this part of me safely tucked away. Yet I dared to show up – was finally willing to follow the invitation, rather than continue hiding.

It's hard to convey in words, the shadowy stuff, though I do try. I suspect I'll be posting more of those reflections here in future. For the most part, I said the important stuff through this song – the daily reality isn't something I imagine many people can comprehend unless they themselves share the same struggles. Or live with someone who does and bear witness to the truth of it.

I wanted to convey something of the monotony of it – the here-I-am-againness – the this-sucks-but...it-too-shall-passness of it. I feel I did a decent job at creating a snapshot in that way.

I work every day on 'releasing the heaviness'. My morning meditation and yoga/stretching practice is crucial to my overall well-being. Perhaps someday I'll feel bold enough to share about that. For now – it's too tender and personal to broadcast. Just know that...one morning at a time, I'm watering that lily – thanking the muck for the grit its built into me – teaching myself how to loosen its grip on my newly-forming, delicate roots of self-love and inner-strength. Little by little...I'm gettin' there.