@hethur240 sounds like its very similar things that set my anxiety off as well, I get the impression many people think I'm rude or ignorant at times especially at gatherings but I'm literally out of my depth at times.

One of the hardest things I found was snapping out of that spiral into the dark, especially when I made the choice to come off the medication, but the below really really helped, obviously it won't work for everyone

I'm always recommending this to people, you should check out "mindfulness" I'm not into meditating but the grounding techniques have been paramount to my progress with dealing with my depression/anxiety.

The link below has a list of some things that can be good to bring you back to the moment and is worth checking out people.

http://mindfulness4u.org/mindfulness-grounding-exercises/

usually, if I can break that spiral of anxiety I can move on and continue moving forward.

Thanks again for sharing, it takes a lot of strength to share such a private part of ones self, something personally i don't have the confidence to do! Hope you have a great week 💪Stay strong!