My depression lately

Look since the beginning of Jan. Things have been rough the doc decided too yank me off my meds (it literally was a yank). I had a panic attack right in the middle of my session. He assumed my meds weren't working the actually had for 2 years and just a beginners dose but it was time for a up in dose. Well obviously he thought different that was not gonna do. So he threw me on klonopin which I thought was a terrible idea. So i got another doc opinion which she agreed with me and up my dose. Which was cool but she thought I need some test for parkison's and wanted me back month to month which I can't truly afford which all this on top. I was like screw this I'll just get off this stuff and move along. Welp folks don't do that.
I have literally been a asshole since but I'm finally getting better. Anxiety, Depression and anything you can think of have been a problem. If someone says one small thing too you like a weight on your shoulders of saddeness. Like your right I am a loser x10 even tho someone never meant it that way or someone says something too you its like a tiny spark in the middle of gas fumes. I hate both these traits that I have. So pretty much I have been a hot mess just avoiding almost anyone even my closest family. It sucks but I would rather say zero than be a complete ass. I will get me back eventually. I will get back to my blog of life as a F'ed kid. Peace y'all!!