Haaa! Yes. The thought has occurred. And I think there's some truth in that, insomuch that I refuse to live life as a doormat and tend to confront issues head on. However, this problem pre-dated my arrival in France. So unless we really are living in the Matrix, I wasn't the cause. Also, I'm working on a post right now that raises that same question: as in, why does the same shit keep happening over and over. Keep an eye out for it. I think I'm onto something here.