Thanks @arthuradamson. Its good to read your post again after a great while.
You have a good heart. I enjoyed reading. Beautiful piece. Your type is rare. And you dont need to find out after this life, you are a great person.
I have met a lady actually. She eats a lot and doesn't easily forgive but right now, she is so fat and so stone hearted. I had such traits, But i have made adjustments. In other words: what if, instead of investing all of our energy into what we don’t want to become (mean-spirited, critical, angry, abusive) we invested our time and resources toward what we do want to become (loving, kind, gracious, forgiving, etc). This might seem like a minor distinction, but I believe it’s really important. I am so happy you helped that professor. This is a gift. A lot of people gave up because no one was there to support or give them that extra push. But God bless you abundantly in all your endevours.
So about the topic, i was really inspired to say thid, So in other words, the more I focus on a person I hate, the more I meditate on their behavior, the more I consider how I can avoid becoming like them, the more I become like them. The more I resist becoming like something I dislike, the more I accidentally move toward those qualities. Great post @arthuradamson.