This sounds familiar (though I'm not a mom)! This last year, I've learned to listen to me, instead of what others expect from me. It's such a rough thing to learn, but it really helps to free your mind. I'm not quite there yet, but I'm starting to just accept my own needs.

I hope you can lessen your feelings of guilt! Don't forget, you need to feel good about yourself and what you do. It doesn't matter how others see things, they don't live your life. You do.