One month ago I moved my mother into my home out in the country to protect her from potentially getting infected by the Covid-19 virus. She lives with my brother whose wife works for a hospital and is at high risk of bringing germs home. I gave my mom my room and my comfy bed so she could have privacy and be comfortable. I've been sleeping in my toddler's room where I keep my baby ducklings who smell and peep all night. Her bed is a loft bed with a 40 year old mattress that was mine and is as comfortable as sleeping on concrete. I have to use a step stool ladder to get in/out of it which is terrible in the middle of the night when I have to use the bathroom badly.

My life has been stressful being cooped up in a small house with my mother who nags about everything. My toddler is going through a tantrum stage with day long fussing. That along with my stressful mother has me at my wits end some days. That being said I haven't complained publicly because I am doing what I need to do to protect myself, my family, and others by staying home for the past month where we can't get sick.

So Why Am I Angry?

Because people are selfish. If you drive into our nearby town people are acting normal. They are shopping at Walmart and Lowes and acting like there isn't a pandemic. People are protesting lock downs and complaining how they hate being at home.

How selfish is that?

I am choosing to stay home to protect my family and others. If people would have stayed home for two weeks to begin with maybe this whole thing could have ended earlier and life could resume but NO! People kept going out and acting normal and here we are still under lock down with no end in sight.

I watched a news interview with some guy who I just wanted to punch. He was talking about how it was a nice day and he went on a trip to Lowes for kicks. He didn't care about the Covid-19 and had no fear of getting sick or making others sick. He acted like a real jack-ass just because he was bored staying home. The parking lot was full. People are so selfish.

This will last a long time.

I originally said May as a timeline for mom returning home but we'll be lucky if it's June at this rate. People are working so hard to get out of their houses finding stupid excuses and loopholes. The fear isn't there anymore even though it needs to be. I guess it's going to have to get worse before it gets better.

For now I'm in a lot of back pain sleeping one this horrible 40 year old spaceship mattress we had in storage. Today I'm even having hard time bending or standing my back hurts so bad. I'm living with cute but smelly and noise ducklings. My husband hides from my mother so I never get to spend time with him even though we're in the same house. And my 3 year old is throwing tantrums while my mother nags me all day. I'll be lucky to retain my sanity through June.

I feel so bad for others as well. All the seniors in high school had their graduations and prom cancelled and the news is filled with disappointed kids. People have lost their jobs and some local businesses have gone under. But hey...at least that young jerk on the news got to go to Lowes for kicks and smile about how he's helping to create the problem keeping the rest of us locked up.