Wow @metama I admire the courage you have in coming out to everyone like this. I think everyone suffers from a sort of depression of some sort. You can't have some highs without some lows, this has actually been scientifically proven.

As far as your dad being not around and thinking about Clint Eastwood as masculine, I have a similar situation. My dad was a businessman and I was never around, so I became obsessed with Weight lifting and being strong! I always saw this in movies and to this day continue it. I think it's a good thing.

I really like where you talk about if we all just do one good a day, it can start a chain reaction of goodness. I try to do this simply by holding doors open for people. Random acts of kindness make the world a better place :)