Hi @overkillcoin
Here is the most important question and answer:

Yes, there's tension between my regular work and Steem, but why prioritize the same system that has been draining the life out of me for years?

Emotional burnout is inevitable in cases where you work a lot and have little rest. You need to be able to get distracted ... but I understand you. When life is presented with opportunities, no one wants to miss them.

The most important conclusion is that reaching a certain point of development (like you), you must prioritize.