Extraordinary, pure and heartfelt @jaynie.

It's funny how we look at those we admire most for their bravery, boldness and apparent ability to keep "it" together under the hardest conditions... and the truth is that FUD (fear, uncertainty, doubt) dwells in almost all of us.

Somehow, I am reminded of one of my own public speaking "trial by fire" moments. I have always been an introvert and public speaking is NOT my friend, but I was-- at one time-- somewhat of an expert on the marketing of small art galleries and retail businesses, so I'd get asked to give workshops at trade shows. Which was fine-- I'm good at working with 10-12 people. Or at least "used to it."

So I'm at a major retail art/craft market at the World Trade Center in Dallas, Texas, and I'm scheduled for a couple of workshops; fine. Then one of the organizers comes to me in a panic (she's also a friend) because evidently "another presenter's flight was canceled." And is there any way I would be willing to take on a third presentation since I'm a small retail expert? Without thinking, I'm saying "sure, no worries." Suddenly, it occurs to me I have three hours to modify one of my existing workshops into something different.

Oh, and another minor detail previously left out: To an audience of EIGHT. HUNDRED. PEOPLE...

I was basically jello, going into that auditorium. I really remember nothing. I was introduced. I said things. The applause seemed warm, at the end. Otherwise I remember nothing. Jules said I did an "amazing job."

I wonder, sometimes, what we really keep in our Courage Boxes. Is it our true selves? Or something to pull out when things are the most difficult? Or something to help us face down our inner demons? Or things best left there to only be used on "rainy days?"