RE: LGBTQ+ Talk: Sexual and romantic orientations | Labels?!
First of all this post is so pretty ! Secondly i fn hate the labels but also need them!! Just need to know that human labels are not like object labels. We contain many things and one label is only a small part oc our contents. ;) also whats inside is not always easily definble as you have mentioned.
I had the opposite experience as you. Growing up-- since about...14?? Ppl started saying /joking that i was gay. Not constantly. It enough to internalize self hate and become homophobic!!! As recently as 4 years ago i was invited to the gay pride parade in boston and refused to go bcause " im not gay!!!" :S meanwhile im dreaming about women and getting way to attached to my best friends....
But as a bisexual person its confusing! Because maybe its "just a phase" (20 year closeted phase for me) and i am still attracted to men. Granted, people think the men im dating arent "manly enough" and that gets confusing too. Just because a man is sensitive and passive and or even has a high voice doesnt mean : a. They are secretly gay or b: they are secretly a woman.
It means you have a limited concept of gender ( yes im talking to my sister who loves me in my head)
First of all, thank you very much! Your comment was very insightful <3
I completely understand that internalized hatred that we acquire after such a long time of being exposed to the negativity that it would imply being someone slightly different, in a way. And not only with sexual orientation but in all aspects of our lives.
I have felt confused sometimes, but after a little instrospection I realized that my confusion didn't come from within but actually from all the things people could say to "help me make up my mind" because they couldn't comprehend what it meant not to be straight. It was that insecurity from before that made me question my whole existence sometimes!