What a brave person you are and it is so horrible to hear of the things you have been forced to endure because of the selfishness of those in power. It is amazing that you have found calm and joy in the realization that you have family and community. I hope the fish are always biting and your flowers always blooming and that you continue to find truth to persevere and to share truth for the benefit of others, both those who endure similar hardship and those who are unaware of the state of so many people in this world who suffer horribly at the hands of those in power who seek only their own aggrandizement.