13 years I've been worrying about the wrong problem!

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I've started my professional life very early, I was 12 years old at that time. I didn't have to, we've always been more than financially stable as a family, never had a single problem with money, but I always wondered how good it would feel to buy my own stuff with my own money!

So, I started looking for every possible way that could help me make money, I started my professional life by searching like everyone else: "how to make money online"

I tried every way to make money, and after several trials I was able to make money after 3 years when I was 15 years old. I always thought that my problem is that I have a low income; my pocket money, and that once I make more money my problem with money will be solved.

Years later, I discovered the problem had nothing to do with making more money, and that could only be seen looking back in retrospect.

Since I was very young, I had a tendency to spend the last penny I have, it's like I never felt relaxed untill I spend that last penny, and it took me a lot of years to figure this out but mainly it's because I keep thinking about all these things I can do with money, once I spend it I'm empty-minded.

I never did any form of budgeting, I was never taught anything about how to manage my money when I was young, and the problem is much bigger than that. I never had an actual wishlist that would help prioritize the things I need over the things I want.

Also, a lot of beliefs involved; I always felt that no matter how much I have it's still nothing so I might as well spend it. Then suffer because I don't have quarter that I have spent.

I always believed there's more money to make and while that's something super positive that could help anyone accumulate wealth but I used it in a bad way; it made me take bigger risks and borrow money on the basis of believing I'll make more money in the future.

I never had an emergency fund, I never really saved for a specific purpose, and the moment I had the money the only thing I could think of is how to spend it in a way that would achieve the utmost pleasure.

This led me to wasting a lot of money, being in debt multiple times, spending most of my life broke, and not being financially stable or secure. Which caused me a lot of trouble throughout my life.

What I wanted to say today is; you might spend your whole life trying to fix a problem without it even being the real problem. My problem was I had bad spending habits, what I was trying to do is make more money.