This is sad news indeed. Though I don't understand the background, I hope you will reconsider. Not for us, not for Steemit, just for yourself. It's been intense on here, it takes time and hard work to produce anything of value and you've certainly done that. It's taken you away from your true passion, the sea, surfing...but perhaps you might find a more sustainable balance?! As to the dark underbelly of social media, if you encounter someone who offers nothing constructive, just ignore them. Don't allow them to chase you from what is potentially a lifelong source of income, information and community. You owe no one an explanation for what you have achieved so far, it's in the blockchain! The evidence of your worth and mettle is plain to see. Hopefully you'll take a break....a very good thing to do, and come back! Even the sea throws out a few curve balls every now and then, it is a place where you need to fight to survive on occasion. It might help to depersonalise negative blowhards and ignore them....they would be like that with anyone. All that being said, obviously do what feels right to you. Big love.