Day 203: 5 Minute Freewrite: Tuesday - Prompt: Back Pain
Hello Freewriters!
Today's prompt is a very touchy subject for me. I deal with debilitating back pain, and am currently on medical leave from my job because of it. So this freewrite is kind of a venting area for me. Please don't take offense, this is 34 years of frustration!
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Now, onto the writing!
"Everybody has back pain." The doctor looked over my x-ray, seeing my spine shaped like a question mark, and not bat an eye. "This isn't even that bad, I have seen much worse Scoliosis." The doctor not even acknowledging how much I was actually hurting. I tell the doctor, I am unable to dress myself. I am unable to tie my shoes. I am unable to go to the bathroom without help. But still, just a little bit of physical therapy will help. Just doing side planks will solve all my problems.
"Everybody has back pain". I try to tell my friends and family about how bad it really has gotten over the years. I am in so much pain that living day-to-day sometimes doesn't even seem worth it if I have to live a life that is so low in quality. They don't understand, because to them, everybody has pain. And they keep going on with life. They don't see any reason why this little bit of pain should stop me from wanting to wake up every morning with a smile on my face. Yet, they get to go to work everyday, be contributing member to society, and get to enjoy things like walking around, bending over to pick something up, getting up and down out of the chair without feeling pain shoot from their toes all the way to their brain.
Everybody has back pain. I get online and try to research as much as possible what different things I can do in order to get rid of some of this major suffering. Can I take some sort of herbal medicine? Can I change my diet? Are there different exercises I can do? Anything and everything under the sun I try to research. But does everybody feel the back pain the way I feel it? Is it really ruining their life? Or is it just a little blip on their radar that slows them down just the tiniest bit until they can pop a Tylenol?
Everybody has back pain. Well I would prefer to not be everybody, and be a nobody.
While I can't relate to having constant backpain, I do understand how debilitating it can be!
I get what I call back-migraines on occasion.
A couple of years ago I discovered it was because of my gallbladder and gallstones lodging themselves where they shouldn't be, but, once or twice a month for years I'd get this back-migraine. Doubled over in pain, can't walk, can't sleep, can't shower, ibuprofen doesn't work, panadol doesn't either, crawling into my bed feeling as though I'm dying, fetal position, finally manage to cry myself into a 20minute sleep. And then I wake up. Bright and pain free (because the stone stopped blocking the tube), but, it will happen again and I loathe every day as I wait for it to hit again.
Sorry, I'm rambling. I just wanted to say that I feel for your backpain!! <3 <3 <3
This is me but with "Everybody has GERD"
When the doctors just kind of check me for less than three minutes and kinda just brush me off like 'it is a normal thing, you have too much worries' I kinda want to strangle them. But then again, they probably deal with these kind of illness everyday that I think they just can't feel the symphaty any longer unless I'm on the bed with IV dripping down.
I hope the both of us will get to get away and have full recovery on what we are experiencing. Keep fighting and be positive!!
I hear you. I also have Scoliosis. I wore a brace for a few years until I stopped growing. I've tried to be proactive now as an adult because I just now learned how weak my spine could get, and it's scary. Have you tried chiropractic care? And I'm sure if yoga would help, since your pain is so intense, but I know it helps me.
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My heart goes out to you. I know what it's like when people tell you to cheer up it's only back pain. Ten years ago I had a herniated disc for about 3 months. The pain was all-encompassing. I couldn't eat or sleep, I ended up on morphine, lost 10 Kilo (I was only 50 kilo to begin with) and finally had to have surgery. If there had been no end to it, I have no idea what I would have done.
I am happy to see someone can relate, even though I would NEVER wish this pain on anyone, maybe not even my worst enemy. Those herniated discs can really put you down. I imagine the surgery wasn't easy as well. Man, being on morphine. Less pain, but not even living. Thank you for commenting. I started following you to see your work as well!