Schopenhauer called it Will and Representation. Unlike, you, though, I find no enlightenment here. In the end, the nihilists are correct. In the long run, nothing means anything......... In the short term, everything is ego projection and ALL is vanity.....Even notions of spiritual non-duality.
There's no escaping these facts unless there is a sentient personal deity​.....That is the ONLY thing which nullifies​ nihilism.......