RE: Looking Back on Drawing 2005-2006
"being able" to draw is a process if you think oh man I "can't" do it. Just Keep doing it until you CAN.. That is what I did at first I could not get it to look how I see then I keep doing it and observing where I can improve until I am happy with the result for me. Always draw for your self and let others worry about there self, Keep trying and failing and over time your failures will reduce and the success will overcome your fear. IT is all just about having fun be that kid again that just draw to have fun no worry about BEING right or wrong. Just express yourself and have fun. I only shared the stuff that comes out and so do other artists we all have piles and piles of shit that is not how we like it and that is just life. :) Come check me out over on Vaudle.com app I am sharing more of my audio over there.
I don't really have a fear or self-consciousness problem, I can just be somewhat private. I am a very loud person around my friends but then when it comes to stuff I create or whatever I'm much more comfortable zoning out and doing things alone and then if I like something someone can look at it later, if they want. I don't take it all that seriously.
That's what I mean when I say I have a "weird thing", it's not really that I'm self-conscious I just can't really put my focus into things with others around. I guess it's more of an attention issue. But, like I said, I don't take my own artwork all that seriously so I never really feel motivated to share it. Maybe someday that will change, and I'm sure it will; but I'm in no rush. If I don't really feel the need to share it, I don't, until I'm satisfied.
I am definitely interested in checking out the app. I remember you telling me about it. Currently, I have a very old MacBook I bought off eBay years back and it has some pretty serious issues. It can hardly handle Steemit half the time; I have to use certain websites on different browsers, and sometimes the browsers or even the whole computer will crash while jumping around. So, I'm kind of putting a hold on continuing to explore other apps and platforms until I can afford a new computer. It's been something I've been wanting for a long time and I think I may be able to do so in the next few months. Once I have more reliable technology I will gladly join you there!
Ah I see. yEs the others look can be distracting at times. The app run s on an iphone so a new puter will not help on that front... unless it is one of those shinny iphones :)
Oh! I was unaware. I'll look into it!
I did my whole Vlog on my iphone this last time. I made the video and the time lapse as well as the music for the timelaps with GarageBand then I made the snap for it in Photoshop and had to use handbrake to convert the video from .mov to .mp4 I have a 2012 MacBook Pro with an i7 and 16 gb of ram and a dead power supply so I really need to get that thing running again.
Here is a link to my latest Vlog https://steemit.com/vlog/@allowisticartist/w22tswpn