It breaks my heart to read your words. The world in not a prison, and we are not chattel. Your despair is distressing, but it is not your only recourse to the traps that have been set for us.

I have sons that I love. I cannot say 'Let it burn!' Neither can you! There must be people that you love, children you want to see grow, fall in love, and love their own kids... Do not give up on them, even if you find it difficult to set yourself free from the blinders that prevent you from seeing the good in the world.

The Yellow Jackets aren't giving up. They're not soldiers, Machiavellian plotters, or banksters. They're just people like you and me that came to that point you are at, and I have been to, and just stood up and said 'Enough!' It is not sufficient to simply keep doing what we have done before if we want things to change. Despair comes when we cannot see how anything we can do can make that change - but when we act as communities, as the Yellow Jackets act as communities, what we do is multiplied by tens of thousands, and our vision of our personal contribution falls far short of what we can do when we multiply it by tens of thousands.

What you do does matter. It matters to your friends and neighbors. So many of us don't even know our neighbors, have never stopped over with a plate of cookies, or a simple housegift to welcome them. The best thing we can do is to change that, to make our neighbors our friends, and then we can begin to act as communities, to feel their hurt when they are harmed, and to provide support to them when they despair - and get support when we succumb to it ourselves.

When troubles come, they overwhelm us when we are alone, and we despair. When we have people to rally to, that rally us in turn, we are triumphant. I cannot speak to your personal circumstances, but a decade ago I lost all I owned and despaired. For a long time I did not rally. I escaped people to consider, and experience my grief.

A couple years ago I came out of the woods, and began to participate in communities. I found my way here, and speak what I think matters that can help people to vanquish their obstacles, and rise above their challenges. You're here, and if you can't reach out to neighbors, friends, or family where you live, there are other places to live. Here you can also reach out and form or join communities, find new friends, and even join family.

Don't let despair overcome you while you breathe. Take stock, reconcile your grief, and then act to surmount the challenges.

Peace.