Wow! Thankyou for sharing what must've been unimaginably difficult to go through. I've had a few grams of psilocybin before which I grew myself (funnily enough, also Peruvian) completely unaware of how powerful these experiences can be. I was lucky to have just a few hours of bliss and then a peak where time didn't exist and I found meat filled with 'bad vibes' which later on lead me to being vegan.

Anyway, I could not even imagine what you went through but I'm glad you are finding your way. I've never been a spiritual person earlier in my life, in fact I was a staunch atheist, now I don't know what to believe but I find a lot of contentment in Buddhism and trying to just 'let life happen' instead of using psychedelics. I'm still interested in DMT but I really unsure if it's necessary if I can become content and just live my life.

Stay cool man. Following for sure. I wish I could upvote you more but my voting power is pretty low right now so I will upvote you more in upcoming posts 😊