I won't say I can understand because I can't.No one can understand what pain you are going through.whenever we talk about your family I feel bad for you and always thank God for mine. you are such a responsible and caring person I am sure one day your son will get to know what all went wrong.He is your blood and one day he will come back to you only.
Belated Happy Birthday To Shaurya.God bless him with all the good things and his dad in life.