Love triangle

she went away,
I'm still waiting..
waiting for her,
waiting for time to turn around,
waiting for her to be back.

I know it's useless,
but it's human psychology I guess.
I feel like waiting for the snow in March,
waiting for the rain in October.
I feel like waiting for the new year in February's night.
I feel like waiting for Christmas in mid July's sunlight.
I know I'm crazy.
I'm insane,
but I'm not suffering from insanity,
I'm enjoying it.
I know it's hopeless,
it's like not buying a lottery ticket and yet wanting to win,
it's like shooting myself with a bullet and not wanting to die,
it's like cutting my hands and hoping that it won't bleed.
It's the same with her.
She won't be back,
but I'm still waiting for her,
with my heart being stabbed by a sharp sword.
It's like waiting for a ship in the airport.

She's with him,
I got only me.
She has his arms around her,
my hands don't reach around myself.
She holds his hand and walks down the streets.
I close my eyes,
hold my own hand,
and pretend that she's with me.

It's like a love triangle,
the only difference is that one side's missing.
She had all her wishes come true,
I'm still wishing.
I love her,
she loves him,
I guess he does too.
And I?
I'm the black sheep here,
the odd man out.
I guess sacrifice is what love's all about.

I love her,
I still do.
She doesn't.
I still care about her,
she doesn't.
I still need her,
she doesn't.
Well that's the irony of life,
I tried to make her mine,
I tried really hard.
I tried to find her,
but at the end I couldn't,
but instead I ended up losing myself.

She is happy,
I fake a smile.
She laughs and giggles,
I cry myself to sleep.
She always radiates a smile,
and at nights I always weep.

If this is meant to be,
then I'm ok with that.
I want her to be happy,
with or without me.
Well... That's all I've ever wanted.
So,
if you're out there somewhere,
if you're reading this,
I just want you to know,
I had always loved you,
and I will always.
Promise me,
no matter where you are,
with whom you are,
you'll always be happy.
I will always love you,
have always did,
and I promise nothing's gonna change my love for you.
You were the one who faked everything,
my love was and shall always be true.