How getting exposed to cheating affects you and how to deal with it.

This is my story.

I am 21 and I've never been in a relationship. But whoops don't get me wrong. If you think I am a saintly conservative person, I'm not. I've been out to so many parties. I've met lots of strangers. Some I dated for awhile but mostly don't last. I've been to few epic meet ups and dates. I've had lots of crushes. Few men have tried to court me. I've chatted a lot. I've kissed a guy. But that is just the beginning. I've seen worst cases. I've been surrounded with lots of cheating issues. I've seen a lot of failure relationships. I've seen a lot of people getting devastated bec of it. I've seen lots of people broke their heart. I've seen a lot of wasted tears. There were times when its in the middle of the night or even dawn and my friends would randomly chat me to talk about there boyfriend thats cheating again. There were bunch of times when Im out getting wasted so I can accompany a friend who just broke up with a guy who doesn't deserve her. Worst memory I have was to cover up for a friend who is cheating just so they won't be screwed up to their partners and thats the worst feeling ever. I hate to cover up even if they're my friends. But as they say sometimes we normally copy the things we dont like and end up doing them. I've also been like a bridge to most relationships (like helping two people get connected with each other and end up becoming a couple). Yes I've tried that. Worst thing about that though is when things get shaky between the two of them I still have to act like a bridge. Thats when I get to know more about common relationship issues and mostly how they ended it. This has all started couple years ago. The thing is the more i get exposed to this cheating stuff the more trust issues I get. Its like the more people I let in inside my life the more people that can walk out. The more dissapointed I get.

I know it's scary. It's scary to think that people now a days can easily cheat and easily broke someones heart and move on the next day. But what's even scarier is the idea of not trying because you're afraid of it. They say if you wont take risk you'll never find true love. I believe in that. I admire those people who would rather love lost and found than never been love.

I may have been exposed to all this sh*ts. But this isn't the reason why im single. The thing is, I am at a point in my life right now wherein I won't let Society's pressure affects me. My point is, too many people rush into relationship because of the fear of being alone. Because of peer pressure. And mostly because they just like the idea of being inlove without enough understanding with the consequences it comes with it. Sadly they end up breaking their hearts. I don't wanna be like that. Of all the guys I've met and dated. None of them ever touches my soul. And thats what I've been looking for.

To all my fellow steemians out there specially to those who have encountered being lied on and cheated . Just take this note..

The truth is everyones gonna hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.

Love lots. 😘

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