Concerned

Your behaviour is concerning
What is it that you're learning?
Every day you keep on turning
Lighting fires and leaving them burning
I smell the smoke from over here
It makes it hard to see you clear
Before I blink you disappear
Then come back acting slightly weird
I keep thinking you need your space
To spend some time with yourself to waste
And though your want for it may be the case
Perhaps it's not what you need to be safe
Is this silence an expression of your cries?
Do you need me to wipe the tears from your eyes?
Is there something that I have not realized?
Right now I am not feeling too wise
Your calls assure me of your well being
But underneath your rambling I'm sure I hear screaming
And I wonder if there's a bigger meaning
That for some reason I'm not quite seeing
Though I don't want to make assumptions
Conversations filled with little substance
And words that don't make much sense
Make me wonder if I've misjudged this
I feel that you are in so much pain
And your impulsive actions it does explain
I just wish I could help with the happiness you long to attain
Because it breaks my heart to watch you go insane
You'll dive off any cliff that looks like a fun risk
Even if it could land you in a massive drug pit
Not even caring how high the jump is
It's like you're just ready to say "fuck it"
It makes me so sad to see you get to this point of despair
I hate all that you've been through it just isn't fair
You're so lost and sometimes I get scared
That you don't believe your soul can be repaired
I know your memory hasn't been great lately but I hope somewhere deep inside
You remember with your heart that I'm never hard to find
And that I'll be here waiting for whenever you decide
To tell me everything else that's been on your mind
And please don't forget the extent of which I care
I'd remind you with a hug if I was over there
Even if you didn't want it I would take the dare
Because it's worth it to me just to make sure that you're aware