I really loved this post. It was raw, it was honest and you could feel the almost sweet acceptance of sorrow dripping through your words.

You pained a picture of one who has been damaged, doesn't think that they can recover, but still has hope. That's a really beautiful and difficult conclusion to come to. I really feel for you and wish you well on your journey.

As a musician I would often come home from shows late at night and drive in the silence after all the chaos. The sound of silence is a beautiful orchestra sometimes. Don't feel guilty about 2am drives, cherish them.

Maybe you will like This Song by Gotye, called Night Drive.

I wish you well