time in life

I can no longer run, I can not hide anymore, and I can no longer dodge. I must answer, I must account for everything I have done, every good and evil will be counted, every charity and my sin will be questioned. I can no longer run.

When my time has arrived,
What should I do? Will I plead and repent for all my sins? Is there still time to pray and pray? Will I be forgiven? Will God accept my repentance after the sins I have committed all this time? Will I still be able to heal His Ridho? After more than a billion seconds I live in the world and my days are always full of sin? Am I still fit to go home with holy circumstances? after the crime, the hypocrisy, and the mistakes I made. I can not run anymore, everything I have to account for.

When my time has arrived,
what should I say to my parents? will they forgive me? After I just wasted their time just to take care of me who can never make them happy and after I always lie to them just to make my pleasure happen, Will they accept my request? After I had never listened to his advice, and never showed my devotion. Will I have their Ridho? after every day I just fill the iniquity that is certain it is very hated by God. Will my regrets guide them their happiness, like when I wake up and their hard work just to be able to see me live to be a better person as they always say when I cried on their lap. Will they hug me? I remember how many miracles they live in just to hear their names in my prayers, and I see them. Will I be able to see them smile again? The smile they always show me when I'm tired of getting hit hard in the world. I can no longer run, when my time has come.

When my time has arrived,
what shall I say to all my brothers? Will they forgive me? After I always bother them, and make them annoyed over all my childish attitudes. Will they accept my regret? After I can only make them sad because of my selfishness, who can never understand they always there every time a fight and always smile and hug me because I was their hope. I can not run anymore, when my time has come.

When my time has arrived,
what to say to all my friends and best friends? After every time lies, betrayals, and hatred that I do always freshen the journey of their lives. Will they accept my regret? after me I translate his feelings with my words and deeds and smile and still stretch out their hands as I fall. I can not run anymore, when my time has come.

When my time has arrived,
what should I say to all my teacher teachers? Will they forgive me? After I always make trouble and never listen to them. After I always see what should be my duty as a student. Will they accept my regret? After they are always patient to try to make me a better person. I can not run anymore, when my time has come.

When my time has arrived,
What should I say to Earth and Heaven? After I can only damage and list my feet just to sin. Will they forgive me? after every step I have only filled with things that are not useful and even always deny any favors I always receive from Nature by God's permission. I can not run anymore, when my time has come.

And if I know when my time comes,
Can all my faults be forgiven? A deliberate and unintentional mistake? Do I still deserve it? received His forgiveness? Is there still time to redeem all my sins?

After all the ugliness that I do, After a lot of favors that I deny, and I do not give thanks. I am a contemptible, filthy and sinful, and God still loves me always giving me His Favors.

After the ugliness that always do my breath, and I always have all His commands. After I always do what is forbidden and what He hates. After all that I can and denyakan. Will I still be forgiven?