😭WHY IF I WANTED YOU SO?😭

albertoguerrero (17)in #writing • 7 years ago

I remember that every fall day, at about 3 am, a man with a mask would come into my room and tell me that if I kept quiet and did not say anything, it would not hurt my parents, I did not want to nothing would happen to them, and I would remain at the mercy of what he did to me, with a weapon in his hand, I would slide it all over my body, then I left it on one side of the bed and began to undress, I felt very unprotected and I was afraid , looked at me in a strange way that I did not understand and I did not like, with his rustic hands touched my chest and then slowly descended my belly to reach my intimate parts, one hand touched me and with the play masturbated until finished , that is the most despicable thing I remember, how I hate it ... wait a moment, I can not continue talking, I feel like crying, how can there be people with such a sick and depraved head, and also be ....
There were days when I slept with my parents, because I could not bear to see him again. But my father told me that she was already big enough to sleep alone. Those words entered my heart like strong daggers, I was afraid to tell them, I did not want that wretch to do them any harm. There were days I did not eat and when that man did not come to get me, it was very difficult to sleep, I had dropped several kilos and I was very sick, my mother was worrying and took me to a nutritionist, and asked me to follow a very strict diet. The depraved was gone for a long time, had not seen it for months, and I was once again, I wished from the bottom of my heart that he was dead and wished I could never see him again. But I was wrong, a Thursday at about 4 am, came back to visit me and this time did something that distress me and I find it difficult to tell them, first undressed me then I take a tape and I cover my mouth and then I tie my arms, I tried to be delicate, but it was disgusting, he told me that I could not help feeling that love for me and that I could not help showing it to me, the voice made me familiar, but the mask that made it sound different, began to touch me and then I felt a pain and this infamous one was on top of me rocking from side to side ... when I remember this I really want with all my soul to tear out the heart with my own hands. But when I get angry, I only want him to rot in jail and pay for what he did to me.

He continued doing it day after day and I think he did it delicately, until that day, I heard a noise near my window, I thought it had been the wind and not pay attention, I felt as if someone was watching me, I feared that was that unfortunate, but I had not been able to glue my eyes for many days, I was very sleepy and I fell asleep, in the cold of the night I felt that they covered my mouth and I could do nothing to let go, then I fell into a deep sleep. the next day when I woke up I was very scared because my sheets were covered with blood, scream loud and my parents came to my aid, my father I lift in his arms and my mother took a towel and took me to the bathroom, said it was very strange who had the period, was barely 9 years old. My mother proposed that we take her to the gynecologist, when we arrived they made us wait a few minutes. they made us go and the gynecologist examined it, then called us apart and told us that the girl had been raped, that fortunately the rapist had left a semen sample, we could not believe what she said, we were going to take her the following week to continue reviewing it. I told my husband to call a detective to investigate the case, he said yes, and we contacted Detective John Evans. I inspected the house and came to the conclusion that someone had entered the terrace and opened Daniela's window and committed rape. They looked around to see if anyone had seen anything, but at 2 am no one was awake. the detective told them he would continue investigating, and that when he had answers he would come to tell them.
After that I was not the same again, I do not know why this happened to me, but I felt that it was not complete, the strong pain in my pelvis, sometimes I did not let myself sleep, at school I did not want to be around someone, I felt the same, I could not bear this thing that was happening to me, sometimes I thought of committing madness, but I felt I had to be strong. The detective questioned my mother and my mother, and concluded that my father was lying, asked for a DNA test, he had no problem and I accept, my mother was very upset because they had made my father a suspect. The investigation followed, and the detective issued an arrest warrant for my father, when they arrived at the house, all his clothes had disappeared and he had vanished. When my mother realized she wanted to die, the tests were positive, my father was the unfortunate rapist. They never found his whereabouts, and after a while they stopped looking for him. Two months ago I found out about this data, it was very hard for me and they had to stay in a psychiatric clinic, I'm 17 years old and my life changed completely. The psychologist said that it was not advisable to tell my young age. Always keep in mind what your daughter or son feels, ask her, give her time, at this moment she may need you, do not wait until tomorrow it may be too late. END