I am. (Short story.)
All I knew was darkness, and I was comfortable in it. But now I see a light.
I don't know what I am. I don't know where I am. I don't know who I am. But I am.
I open my eyes... I have a body: good, I have a place to live in; I already have a home. I can't see very well and everything is so shiny and bright it hurts my eyes. Wait. Everything hurts. My skin is too sensitive, and this place is so cold I feel like I'm burning. Suddenly, I'm so scared. Everything I feel is pain. I start to cry loudly, and the sound hurts my ears too.
I feel the presence of others near me. I don't understand anything. This new world is scary, I want to feel safe again. Instead, I feel like I was ripped apart from my origin. And somehow I was put here. What did I do to deserve this?
Others are touching me, what are they doing? They're holding me. I realize I'm tiny compared to them. I can't exactly see them, but I notice movement, and their shapes look gigantic. But then again, I'm not sure how I can compare myself to them.
This body is too weird. I have too many limbs, too many things to control, and others I cannot control. There are too many distractions, so many triggers. I keep crying.
But then I hear a sound I recognize. I immediately feel safer, better. I try to remain silent for a minute, to search for the sound again. And there it is. Somehow I know I need to be closer to the source of the sound, everything will be better once I get there, I will understand better then. But how will I get there?
It doesn't matter because one of the others gets me close to it. Wait. It's another. The sound is coming from one of them. This other is touching me. This touch doesn't feel wrong, it feels warm and soft. I feel less and less scared. I'm okay, everything is better now.
Those sounds are the other's voice, and it sounds familiar. I want to stay here forever. I don't know how I know, but I have to remain next to this other. I know I'll be safe here. I know I'll be cared for. I know I'll be loved.
Oh... Love. Now I remember. I think I'm here to learn more about this thing called love. I don't know what it is just yet, but maybe it starts like this. With a light when all there was before was darkness; with a safe place when all I feel is fear and pain; I think it starts with a familiar voice making its way to me through all the chaos of a new existence.
I hope I don't forget this is what I came to do. This is what I came to be. Because I know this is what I am. Love.
Being born into new worlds never gets old.
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@agnikana.. Lovely story. It feel like you want to express the emotion in the story. And the way you started the story was perfect, i sometimes have the similar question to myself, who am i , why i can feel my self, why i am not someone else., And you have end the story well. I love it very much.
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Thank you! I think we all feel like that at some point in our life, it's in our nature to question ourselves and everything that surrounds us. I'm glad you enjoyed <3
That's very true. And you have write the story very well. What gave you the inspiration to write this story?
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It was a weirdly emotional day when I wrote it. Read the answer above :), I explained it.
Ah sorry, i thought that was part of your story , i didn't know that it also your emotion. 😛
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Very interesting. It was a bit hard to follow at first but then it reminded me of my own memories of being a baby. It's weird. You're still trying to figure out how to use your arms and legs and learn language and everything.
Yeah, exactly. everything is shocking. I think being born has to give us the worst traumas lol.
This is a beautiful story. Until the end I didn't know who would that be and then I understood :) I like how you describe how a baby feels. All of those gigantic people, limbs and sounds.. and then the voice of a mother.. and all is good again :) It's a pity that we don't remember how it felt, lol. But I'm sure it was very similar to your story ;)
What has inspired you to write such story? Have you given a birth recently? :)
Thank you for sharing! I really liked it.
Thank you for reading <3 I'm glad you liked it.
No, in fact, I've never wanted to have children. I don't think it's a mission for me in the world. I respect maternity too much. I am more like the baby, and I feel I never got rid of the sensation of being put in a very strange world, inside of a very strange body. I think I had a moment with my mother yesterday that made me feel that even when we have issues, we have an important conection that's not necessesarily logical. When I'm in distress being next to her soothes me. And I think it soothes her too to be next to me. She gives me some kind of mystic love that I find interesting, and I felt that yesterday so I used to as an inspiration to write this short story for a contest hehe.
This is such a lovely story and I love your writing style.
It's incredible how babies go through all of these "crazy" emotions and we hardly even notice, while this is purely fiction, I feel that it could truly be an interpretation of a baby's emotions when they finally arrive this new world, until they finally feel that touch and hear that voice which they seem connected to.
Isn't it just amazing how they feel that connection and warmth even though they supposedly know very little?
I love your story.
Thank you for reading and for your kind comment. <3
When we were born it must have been a chaotic day, full of anxieties, fears and fluctuating sensations, you described everything perfectly as it happened to you yesterday... or maybe it is true that every new day is a new birth... your writing is very effective because you have the ability to read the thoughts of the protagonist and you make him talk directly with the reader, truly impressed
Thank you so much, you're so kind. I just like to look at babies and guess what they could be thinking. Like, they probably laugh when we make them faces because we look stupid hahaha. Nah, in reality, it's just that, they haven't see anything, they haven't even breather air when they come out to the world, everything is obviously a shock. And the only thing they know by instinct is the voice of their mothers because they have heard her the last 9 months. So that should be familiar and therefore safe.
You show to everybody that a short story could be very beautiful and better than a boring long story!
Congratulations and thanks to share with us this post and to @curie to underline your skills!!!
Steem on!
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Thank you <3
Wow! What a beautiful way to picture birth through your story. Great job!
Hi, @agnikana , what a beautiful description of that wonderful moment when our life starts!
Desde el principio me di cuenta de lo que describías, y debe ser así, cada bebé comienza a tranquilizarse cuando siente el amor que lo rodea, es un milagro maravilloso. Te felicito por tu hermosa historia.
Gracias :D Me alegra que lo disfrutaras <3
whoa...To be honest, this was one of those writings that's kind of like esoteric....only a certain people who have gone through this can truly understand....and u should know how much I loved this story cause how gently but deeply it touched me..all I can say is that just keep yourself where the love and the light is....
Well, we have all gone through it. But you're right, I tend to throw my metaphysics in everything I write. I'm glad you enjoyed <3
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