I have read a few of your posts. You seem to feel the way I do most of the time. I also don't really see the point of life. No matter what you do, how you do it, what you believe, everyone still has the same cancer of life and dies in the end. Still not actually sure if I believe in reincarnation either. It's all up in the air for me. I am atheist because of all the religious people that are hypocritical. And that is most of them whether they admit it or not. I haven't had a lot of girlfriends in my life either, so that sucks living most of my life alone. You have posted a few pics and said that you were too afraid to post a pic of yourself. You also mentioned you do have friends. So, have one of your friends take a pic of you doing something you enjoy so that you are more comfortable with it. You don't even have to show your face in it. You can just have your back turned or something. Also maybe try nudism. It doesn't have to be around anyone else, but just walk around naked in your own place. If there is a place where you can get some sun on your naked body, then try that too. Without the restriction of clothing, things feel better. I can't wait until I can afford to live in a place where I don't have to wear clothes unless I leave the property. People say we have freedom in America, but I don't think we have true freedom. I have been thinking about writing a post on it someday. Anyway, at least try the pic thing to feel a little more comfortable on here. I have come to believe that you will get more support on here than the people out around you that you pass by when walking on the street. And just keep posting. I need to post more instead of waste time playing video games and get more stuff done that I want to do. I will also be uploading some nudist workout videos and try to work on getting a following. So, feel free to watch them and let me know what you think. Have a good day.