Yeah the hard thing about BPD is being sooo normal appearing and high functioning most of the time. I'm pretty sure my mom has a few symptoms as well but its my dad who passed this joyous life to me.

Of course i havent been officially diagnosed but there are only a handful of symptoms im not experiencing and that is due to sheer will.

Funny i talk about being crazy so often that i dont feel its brave. Its more like ahhhhh light bulb!! I was blaming a lot of ppl and denying a lot of stuff as affecting me-- which is somewhat true but unrealistic. Hoping i can get some better focused DBT or CBT when i move back to PNW but idk how hard it will be to fibd an affordable therapist.