A moment of vulnerability, now and then. A (kind of) song (ish) thing.
I was going through some old videos and deleting crap from my computer this morning when I found this video that I actually had gone all the way through the process of uploading to youtube, but then I can't remember if I actually ever shared it in a blog as I intended to. It's unlisted. It has zero views, so if I shared it, then no one actually watched it.
So I thought I'd do that. Share it. I am feeling rather vulnerable today, and so this video is appropriate, because I remember this day, I felt rather blue.. and incredibly vulnerable. So, it could pretty much just be the same me that is the me right now. Sometimes when I am not feeling the greatest, it helps me to share something personal about myself with strangers, or semi-strangers... people who don't really know me in real life. That's why I've given so much of my time to this random chain of blocks. It's an easy way to disappear simultaneously with sharing.
Anyway.. here in this video I was alone in the house and just felt very lonely, as one tends to feel when they're alone in a house. I also remember doing a video right before this one and crying in the middle of it, and deleting that one right away. Last summer was rather difficult for me, it was quite emotional. I turn to the internet to escape from reality, in case no one has noticed, it's kinda good for that. The internet works very well at distracting. Probably that's why Al Gore invented it. He was in need of being distracted.
I look really bad in this video .. no make up and had previously just been crying...so you'll just get over it. Close your eyes or something if you can't handle the view. It's what I do when I drive over bridges. I can assure you, It works. This applies pretty much to all scary things in life. To make scary things less scary, just close your eyes.
Have a great day.
BY THE WAY..
If you are not in @helpie, maybe you should be. Yes? Helpie is always looking for new members. I, MYSELF, am particularly interested in members who would be interested in popping into the discord chat room early in the mornings to chat with me, because that is when I'm most chatty, am having my most amounts of coffee, and need my most amount of motivation to get my damn self through the damned day. Lately there aren't many people who come to chat in helpie.. maybe there are 10 people who ever pop into the discord chat room anymore. I MISS PEOPLE.
Anyway... I am paintingangels(serena)#3668 in discord.. send me a note if you're interested in being CHATTY with me and the other members of helpie in @helpie... and if you are a good decent person who isn't a selfish asshole. That's the main requirement we have for joining helpie. Don't be an asshole. Don't be a dick. Nobody likes either of those 2 things. They're gross.
Okay bye..
♥- Serena
I love hearing you sing, even if you are just improvising a little lullaby about not knowing what to sing about.
Thanks @meno ♥♥♥
OMG! Serena!
I do that too! I close my eyes! I would also suggest it. (Not during this video, but in general).
I used to ride with my GBF in college and he was the WORST driver. LOL! Spent a lot of time with my eyes closed travelling to and fro. But it DID teach me how to relax in times of trouble. 😉
Now... on to this video. First, it was back when you didn't know how to stop the clicking! I remember those days. 😍 Serena, even sad your voice sounds so comforting and soothing. I also FREAKING LOVE that you just make it up on the fly... and record it. I do that, sans recording. You, mam, are brave. 😍
Side note: I fail ALLLLLL THE TIME. It may be the thing I'm best at.❤️
What makes that okay? I keep trying.❤️
Carrieeee. I would love to hear more of your on-the-fly songs.. have heard them on the air, love when you do people's names.. ♥♥♥ Thank you for the sweet words! Luvz! ♥♥♥
You are amazing, @paintingangels. And I really relate to the sentiments you shared in this post, that vulnerability is hard and sometimes sharing something of yourself (even with strangers) feels as though it takes some of the weirdness and hurt away. The alternative is punching it down, out of sight. But then it just festers.
Thanks. , Jayna❤️❤️❤️
That’s exactly it...yes.. punching it down is not a healthy way to deal. Potentially embarrassing myself in front of a few people online while getting my feelings out into the open and feeling less lonely while I do it.... healthy! I think!
You could sing complete nonsense and I'd still enjoy listening to it. :-)
I am so not a morning person or else I would chat with you in the morning.
I miss you, Amber! I see you sometimes over at PAL in the middle of the night in pirate and such.. sometimes I just lurk and watch chat.. since I can't listen on my headphones late at night if I don't get out of bed. And would feel silly talking in a pirate chat when I can't hear the pirates.. lol
You should stop in and say hi sometimes! :-)
I'm glad you shared this! I had a pretty bad night .... Closing my eyes and listening to the song. Lovely lovely. And yes. Join helpie (to others)
Eonnnn.. I 'm sorry to hear you had a bad night : ( lately i have been up A LOT in the middle of the night , gimme a holler if you ever need to chat! (southern talk right there... HOLLER at MEH)
Also thank you ♥♥♥
Thanks for sharing this song: it's really sweet! (I upvoted and commented even your unlisted YT, LOL)
This deserves a resteem and a fresh !BEER token: enjoy!
Hey @amico! Thank you so much for all of that! How awesome of you! And BEER token, yay!! How do I give one to you, also? !BEER
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I find it cool, isn't it? ;)
Huge Hug,
@amico
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This is beautiful Serena <3
Thank you, Julia! ♥♥♥
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