Purpose

I got out of the US Army (ETS) On September 7 2015. I Still remember That day looking myself in the mirror and even though I knew That was gonna be the last time I wore My military Uniform, I was surprised, I didn't feel anything. What I mean by that I felt no excitement, nervousness,anger etc.. just normal, as in Im just going to work. Honestly it was kind of disappointing because prior to that I was looking forward to how I would react. For the next 6 months still woke up at 5am like I would previously, because I had to get ready for PT( Physical Training) And drive to post. At first it felt weird because no matter if i tried to sleep longer my body was so used to waking up early that when i did finally slept until 6am i woke up freaking out running around looking for my pt uniform thinking "IM LATE!" only realizing oh yeah im not in the Army anymore.I Got A Job as a contractor working In an Air Force base, It paid really well , but i was miserable. As Time passed I was Miserable because I thought to myself once I get out Of the military I will finally be happy and motivated again, and well I sure got smacked with reality, and realize that wasn't the solution . I was angry at myself, thinking why am I so unhappy? Later as time passed I finally realized why, One I had PTSD from deployment and didnt get help(Will Talk about it In another Post). But also because I didn't Have Purpose, A Life Purpose! When I was In the Army my purpose was to be a soldier, and do the things that came with it, which gave me a meaning to wake up in the morning and do whatever I had To Do. Working as a contractor I realize I just worked for a paycheck and so i found no motivation, and so i was unhappy because it didnt have a purpose. To close out, My Journey hasnt been easy but Im grateful and happy that Im finally have found a purpose, My purpose now is no longer somewhat a single career but instead things I enjoy doing and motivate me to wake up still early in the morning and Get them done. For example I enjoy Playing Guitar So I found purpose in Learning to continue learning and working to being a musician that plays his own music whether for myself or for others in my local community. I Enjoy Learning and Buying Antiques And Vintage Items and have made it into a purpose Of Being an Antique Dealer By learning the trade And reselling it locally or online so hence an entrepreneur.