I understand what you are saying - also does not make sense to me shouting and crying over things or a person, but I also do believe that even through all the shit of this country there are still good people and things that happen - so sometimes I just need to concentrate on that because if you just concentrate on what the idiots are doing to our country, we will go crazy. I think sometimes we need to spend energy on the good things, not just the bad, even if they are few and far between. Do you know how difficult it is for a teacher not to loose it if we learn about our country???
Haha, I think there are some great wtf moment stories you can tell about maybe what people assume of the country and what is fact. Yeah, there is good, but I don't tend to focus on it too much. I am aware of it and them I just don't think it really matters in a broader scope. Things that are good seem to me to be a personal thing, good go about their business and does not affect others. The bad spreads, it is at the top and drips down and spreads on the ground in an attempt to eradicate the good. I don't really mind thinking on the bad and I think the only time it takes energy from me is when I am confronted by such a person be it just a general interaction or worse. Thinking and ranting about these things I feel is energy well spent because I am deliberating and although I state an opinion I know that opinion can be changed provided honest criticism. That for me at least feels like growing, whether I change the world does not matter but whether I change myself for the better, I would hope so. Not to veer too far from the good. I think good is there but I don't think good, will mind me leaving it out of the discussion.
I understand totally what you say and agree and mostly also feel like this - you just have a much better way of putting it into words.