Sometimes the pain is so hard, the circumstances are low, and you are tried of hurting yourself, and the pain lies, depression lies, despair lies, and you hate yourself, and there's feeling that it's impossible to get better, standing in the ruins of life, there's so much negativity which we think are created by our circumstances, misfortune, and the people around us, BUT, are actually the result of our cowardice and the lack of tolerance.

Whatever may be the situation, suicide is never a solution. Sometimes, it may be hard to resist, but it's never impossible.
Remember,

Once you survived the crucible, you grow stronger for it.

There are so many ways to help survive those hard times. A good communication is always better solution. Mediation, peaceful music, refreshment and also psychologist advice are always useful.

You are so lucky for you have life, don't just waste it rather enjoy every piece of it.