I agree with you. There are lots of things that happen subconsciously and I believe our duty to ourselves and others is to bring that stuff up into our conscious mind so that we can work on it, heal it or modify it for our own growth. It took courage for you to return to deal with this issue and for that I applaud you. Most people would have just walked away. The subconscious does not have to govern our lives. With conscious work, we can reprogram the subconscious so that we can find peace in our lives. Kudos to you. I am deeply impressed.