ULOG#33 : I miss my First Born

I miss you badly my abuddy Panug

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My kuya Zeph is 11 years old now. 2 more years and he'll be on teenage. I remember when he was just on hus toddler years and his having his baby talks , but now he'sreally grown up. But i have this guilt in me that i missed a lot of his milestones and even simole events in his life. Like what i said on my stories before, my first born grew up with his Lola , because i need to continue my studies and started working back then. So a lot of happenings and developments in him , i didn't witnessed personally . Though we always have communication like voice calls and video calls, it's still different if i have him with me now.

He's on 6th grade now, hopefully next school year we'll be together . I actually asked him if he wanted to transfer school last year , but he requested not yet since he was used to his classmates and school . So then , i let him stay there. I am just very thankful that my whole family in our province has always been there to guide and love him. Actually they spoiled him a lot specially when he was still a little boy.

But then as i am seeing my baby boy now, i am so thankful how he was raised by my momma , her grandma . He's now becoming more kind, more responsible , doing good at school. And i remeber last summer he had this girl crush whom he made her pictures as his phone wall paper and even as his facebook profile picture.Oh gosh, that time i immediately talk to him (this is by the way in person because he's with me every summer break) and told him that it's not necessary to do that , and i ask him to change it to his siblings picture instead, LOL. Gladly he listened to mommy, well, he always do, that's why i know what approach i will use whenever i have to talk to him.

Last night i was chatting with my sister @avhyaceulip and she sent me videos of Zeph that i'll be sharing on this post too , i didn't watched it right after my sis sent it, i did , before my sleeping time , my tears just automatically fliwed out of my eyes while i was smiling at the same time, i just missed him so much , like i do everyday of my life. At the same time so happy and proud to know that he now knows how to help there with some chores and tasks. Love you Kuya!

Well, there , just can't help but share what i feel. I am just hoping that one day we'll be together always and forever.

Here are three short videos of him , watering plants task.

much love,