Ulog 11: Being In The Here and Now

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Hey! How are things on this side of the web? As you may have known, I have just gotten into a manufacturing industry and suffice to say, it has eaten up most of my time and cares.

Life has not been short of surprises these days. From a heartbreak to the death of a relative, I’m surprised that I still haven’t broken down - yet. Well, symptoms have started showing up in the forms of stress eating and mental health leaves but I still get by.

You may be wondering why after all this time I have finally decided to post. Well, something happened yesterday with a coworker. It struck me so hard that up until this very hour I am feeling like proving somebody wrong.

This guy came up to me and said, "I'm going to say this bluntly, ha. You look clueless."

And instead of losing my cool, I composed myself. I took it in, not feeling all defensive and just said, "That's okay, I can handle the truth."

And by some weird magic, I turned my attention to the things that were actually happening in front of me. I was way in over my head that I forget that the real perils of the world are on the outside, not in my head.

I relished every sip of the coffee that I just had. I opened up to the same guy about the things that were going on in my life at that time. I noticed every word that I said, every person that I talked to. And the one thing that kept me going despite operating on just four hours of sleep and three cups of coffee was -

Fuck you, man. I may look clueless to you but looking and being are two different things. You will be wiping your sorry ass off when I woman the fuck up.

F*ck off.