bad nightmares

Interesting...I've just learned about your plight; and, would love to know where you are on your spiritual journey, if you're up to sharing.

Dreams are often metaphorical pics of emotional goings on in the waking hours. Perhaps, if you'd try writing them out in blog form, whether you share as a post or not (hope you would), they'd be out into the universe, and potentially have less power over you during sleeping hours.

You seem to have skills as an artist, perhaps you might consider sketching your way out of debt at $5-10 per pencil drawing (15-minute max spent on a sketch). Or you could just sketch on a big pad in the park, and let people looking over your shoulder drop money in your 'secured' tip jar ;+). Be sure to have your BTC id easy to take a snapshot of...One never knows what happens, when they try. You'd be amazed at how much people will pay to have an original piece of art in their home.

Prayers that things will get better for you soon. I know it's cliche; but tough times don't last, tough people do. You're young in comparison to many in your predicament; so be strong.

Btw, are you eligible to get a grant to pursue an art degree at the Community College. Being a college student earns a lot of perks; but, of course, avoid the student-loan burden by all means.

God can take rain; and make a rainbow. I'm signing out for the evening; but, I look forward to your reply to this post.

Peace.