Your children is older than my daughter ( i think) anyway... i can relate a little to some of what you're saying. After she was born, i would wake with her early mornings around 4 a.m. she would go back to sleep, I would have coffee and read. Everyone needs time for themselves.

Sometimes even just a small weekend vacation, with family.. ( i know you said alone) is good as it at least changes scenery.

Take care @snowpea