i made a habbit of finding the "silver lining"

As a kid i had a lot of issues(i still do) with people, as they don't seem to get me. As you would've guessed i had to kiss some arse to get liked and feel among, or so i thought. Back to the topic of silver lining as i was just trying to make sure u have a hint of my childhood. Whenever i get bullied or beat up i would go home and practice martial arts for hours, and mentally thank my bullies for the training although it did not really serve me then. I did not feel too bad about them bullies because they were training me(according to my mental projection at least), my phone would get stolen and i would be like "well i wont be distracted from my studies"(oh yeah i forgot to mention that i finished high school when i was 14yrs old, so yeah i wasnt in high school). one day i slept off with porn still playing on my computer, my daddy broke my computer, banned me from using the internet for months, and you wouldnt guess what my silver lining was. I said to myself "well i wont masturbate and watch porn anymore, this is God telling me that they bad for me". U must think i'm the most positive guy, i doubt i'll see a silver lining if u poke my eyes(i still train muay thai) haha. i'm not comfortable yet to talk about my latest silver linings, so i'll save that for later ciao.